Had a dream last night…
…that I was flying around with a jet pack on. It was crazy – I was going so fast I could feel my face being pushed back by the wind. haha. Don’t know why, but I thought I’d share that with ya.
As you’ve probably noticed, I’ve been pretty busy lately…work mostly – I had my one-year anniversary at Orbit last week so I was preparing for my review as well as working on some really cool new projects. Wish I could post them but the clients haven’t seen them or approved them yet, so that wouldn’t be fair or legal. lol. Maybe once we get to “site launch” I can post those designs up and show you. I keep meaning to put up a portfolio page since I have been a part of 80+ website projects in the past year. I promise I’m going to make that a reality very soon.
Some exciting news – a co-worker Nick Haas asked me if I’d like to be part of a group art show – so that is currently in the works. I’m really flattered actually that he even asked me. He does photography and digital art as well as designing and art direction at Orbit. Very cool guy and talented artist…really glad he came aboard recently. Check out his site here.
I’m gonna go watch the rest of my movie! Peace.
The big P
Pregnancy.
ha ha…fooled you all for a second…it was just a dream.
I had a dream last night that I was pregnant….like full-on-9-months-about-to-give-birth-pregnant! I was in the hospital room with the nurses and doctor and they were telling me to hold on because I should wait a couple more days to deliver and I was like ‘nope, I’m ready now, lets do it.” but basically I was just waiting and talking to all these people about it and looking down my belly was huge. It felt really real in the dream too.
So I just googled dreams and pregnancy and I found an article that said, “If you are close to delivery, this usually means that something you’ve been planning or thinking about is close to materializing in the waking world.” That’s pretty cool…maybe its just all this talking that Bobby and I have been doing about buying a condo and having a home and getting married and all this stuff. I mean we’ve been talking and talking and talking about it and I’m ready to see it happen, its just money that holds us back. I guess that’s one of the challenges of living in Chicago. I kind of have this ideal situation in my head from when I grew up that I would have a house and have a big perfect wedding and have like 2 or 3 kids, but most likely I’m going to pay way more than I ever thought I could for a small condominium (although it’ll be kickass) and I’ll probably have to wait another year or two to get married even though I want it now and I’ll probably have to wait until then to have kids because I really would like to be married first.
And you can’t have exactly what you want especially if you don’t have a plan. I think what my biggest regret (although you should never have regrets) is that I didn’t start making plans or having goals until now about my personal life. I always had career goals and I’m finally very happy with the state of my career, but now I’m like “whoops” did I forget about what I wanted personally? I put a lot of pressure on myself with my job and how well I do in design, but then what about friendships, relationships, and my future as a person? I want to really work on that this year and moving forward. I think that’s one reason I’m really looking forward to writing more about whats going on with me here. Hopefully we can all keep in touch a bit better (even with my busy work schedule.)
One of the people that comes to mind when I think of good planning is Justin Winget – ever since I’ve known him he’s had a list of goals on his desk, things he wants to do this year and things he wants to do in his lifetime. I’ve never had a list like that. Maybe we should all take a lesson from him and make our own lists. I mean look at Justin, he’s like one of the most productive people I know…in the words of Jessica Large last night, “I think he might one day become president.”
Next on my list: Make a list.
Transported to Map Space
I dreamt last night that Bobby and I were looking at google maps. We flew from the couch right down into Southern California. We just jumped in and the little vector streets and parks turned into real live spaces. As we zoomed in to the map, we somehow transported into the map space. We jumped and bounced and screamed because we liked it. We were like, – in there. We were sort of flying and he was explaining to me that when he used the “zoom” feature we were able to move closer to the streets and it was almost as if we were jumping and moving way out in the atmosphere.
I’ve only flown in dreams twice. This is the second time. It’s absolutely cool.
Its really as if I have the ability to gravitate and I can feel that feeling in my chest that you feel when you are falling, but then with a burst upwards, the feeling goes back down. I’m sure I sound completely insane. Dreams are essentially something that happened to me in my unconscious and don’t really pertain to any of you out there. But maybe someone had a similar experience…?
Anyway… I hope we all learn to fly one day.
My feet are still cold under the blankets.
It’s not late but I’m tired and I still have so many things to stack. Like bills, and clothes, and dishes. I find that when I stack things into neat little piles they don’t bother me as much. I also find it hard to believe that anybody can have children and still find time to stack all those other things on top of it. But one day I’ll do that and the stacking will be out of control. Maybe I’ll love that feeling…i wil have to wait and see.
I had flank steak for dinner with red & green peppers and pepper jack cheese baked into it. My boyfriend is fantastic for making it for me. Sadly he is at the public library now, having a meeting for his new business, when I’d rather him lay here and bath me in kisses. But maybe this is my time. My time to hear myself think and that’s always wild and weird and wonderful.
I hope someone from my office googles my name to read this bit of nonsense. Its good when you find out people are real. It makes you appreciate yourself just a little bit more to know that other people out there are seeking out the likenesses of themselves in you. And that’s what we all do. We go out looking for something that feels like home.
Have a beautiful night everyone.