The big P

Pregnancy.

ha ha…fooled you all for a second…it was just a dream.

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant….like full-on-9-months-about-to-give-birth-pregnant! I was in the hospital room with the nurses and doctor and they were telling me to hold on because I should wait a couple more days to deliver and I was like ‘nope, I’m ready now, lets do it.” but basically I was just waiting and talking to all these people about it and looking down my belly was huge. It felt really real in the dream too.

So I just googled dreams and pregnancy and I found an article that said, “If you are close to delivery, this usually means that something you’ve been planning or thinking about is close to materializing in the waking world.” That’s pretty cool…maybe its just all this talking that Bobby and I have been doing about buying a condo and having a home and getting married and all this stuff. I mean we’ve been talking and talking and talking about it and I’m ready to see it happen, its just money that holds us back. I guess that’s one of the challenges of living in Chicago. I kind of have this ideal situation in my head from when I grew up that I would have a house and have a big perfect wedding and have like 2 or 3 kids, but most likely I’m going to pay way more than I ever thought I could for a small condominium (although it’ll be kickass) and I’ll probably have to wait another year or two to get married even though I want it now and I’ll probably have to wait until then to have kids because I really would like to be married first.

And you can’t have exactly what you want especially if you don’t have a plan. I think what my biggest regret (although you should never have regrets) is that I didn’t start making plans or having goals until now about my personal life. I always had career goals and I’m finally very happy with the state of my career, but now I’m like “whoops” did I forget about what I wanted personally? I put a lot of pressure on myself with my job and how well I do in design, but then what about friendships, relationships, and my future as a person? I want to really work on that this year and moving forward. I think that’s one reason I’m really looking forward to writing more about whats going on with me here. Hopefully we can all keep in touch a bit better (even with my busy work schedule.)

One of the people that comes to mind when I think of good planning is Justin Winget – ever since I’ve known him he’s had a list of goals on his desk, things he wants to do this year and things he wants to do in his lifetime. I’ve never had a list like that. Maybe we should all take a lesson from him and make our own lists. I mean look at Justin, he’s like one of the most productive people I know…in the words of Jessica Large last night, “I think he might one day become president.”

Next on my list: Make a list.